Thursday, September 29, 2005

Ralph Hotere

This is my favorite print ever.

Well, a link to it.

here.

I am having a deep week. God has been doing a lot of STUFF in my life. I have been talking about things I never dreamed I would put into words. I have embarked upon a journey I never dreamed I would take. My life is in His hands, and he is moulding me.

I spent years stagnant. I spent years not seeing any change, any movement.

But this week, I see how much change has occurred in me in the last two years. I am truly a new person. Life is so sweet for me, even in the pain or pressure of new places and old places revisited.

I just want to say, I love my church. In Elim I have found a home. I have begun to GROW. I have been challenged and uplifted, offended and frustrated all at once! No church is perfect, I can tell you. Sometimes I sit in church and CRINGE. I get angry and rage against the stupidity I sometimes see. But I am challenged, and constantly reminded that there are other ways of being out there, just as valid as mine. Furthermore, I can honestly believe in the people of Elim. They LOVE God, they are so passionate. So, when they are wrong (in my opinion), at least they are wrong out of passion and determination and not sluggish bored inept dissaffected-ness. I love the praise and worship, the preaching, the community. I am growing. I am free. It feels good.

Must go, Sim wants the 'puter.

See ya soon.

3 comments:

Logan said...

hey shz i really glad to hear that you are injoying it at ilam and that you are growing, somtimes it's hard to keep ya eyes on the good stuff and not on the bad,
that is a pretty cool picture thing.

Logan said...

hey shz i really glad to hear that you are injoying it at ilam and that you are growing, somtimes it's hard to keep ya eyes on the good stuff and not on the bad,
that is a pretty cool picture thing.

::Shannon:: said...

shaz,
you are truly beautiful and your deep thoughts are a reflection of your curiosity for life, your willingness to change, and your passion for authentic growth. how encouraging to hear more about how you've been changing! i'm so glad to be a part of your life NOW! and you ARE free and that, my friend, is a force not to be reckoned with!


(ps love your new hairdo!) ;)