Nevermind. It's good, much better than I've been and I guess improvement is the key.
I'm doing this new praying thing at the moment and it is kicking my spiritual butt into shape. It's so GOOD. I'm really interested in meditation so it's a form of meditative prayer, where I'm empty my mind and find the god within. Just kidding. I have been praying a series of short prayers over and over. And it's amazing, i have to say a whole bunch so i try to keep a move on, you know, so I get to sleep before midnight, but I just keep slowing down because very time it's fantastic!
One of them is the Our Father, the Lords Prayer and I realised as I was saying it, Jesus said this! This actual prayer! Not in english, obviously, but still! Amazing, it totally blew me away.
I've read this book lately called Eat Pray Love about this woman who went on a spiritual quest for a year, it's very funny, she is great (reminds me of you Helen, if you happen to be reading). But one of the things she said was that one of the names for the Spirit was Beloved. I freaking love that. The Holy Spirit is such a urgh name.
Read the Shack. It's, well, read it and then talk to me (as my Mother wisely said).