I've decided to fast shopping. This is the thing, shopping and over eating are my two great faults as a human being. There's nothing wrong with shopping. There's nothing wrong with eating. But I have an unhealthy relationship with the both.
I need to shop. I think I'm addicted. I have realised this even more because the thought of not shopping for the six weeks I've alloted makes me feel panicked. I know, it's silly, but it's real. Part of this the realisation that I'm rich. I've become quite snobby about rich people. I think they should give more of their money away and they shouldn't have so much stuff. I realised the other day, thanks to a Mars Hill sermon by a guy called Kent Dobson, that I AM RICH. I am one of those rich people. When it says in the bible that it's hard for rich people to be part of the Kingdom of God, I realised that that verse is about me.
It was quite a shock to the system. Rich people live in Fendalton or Cashmere. Not in Barrington. But of course, I am, literally, richer than 90% of the world's population. Of course I am rich! Who am I kidding?
And consumption is not bad, it's not bad to like nice things and to want to look nice. It's just not good for me the way I feel about consumption. So, upshot is, I'll stop shopping (excluding groceries and birthday presents) for six weeks (until the 2nd of November). The money that is in my account I will divide up - 1/3 to pay off my debts, and 2/3 to a charity.
That's the challenge! Scary and hard right now, but I think it will bring me a measure of freedom in the long term.